Wanna know how I know? Because, on the inside, I'm arguing with myself - a part of me feels lame for not going out and being a typical 19-year old, and the other part wants to do nothing but drink juice and take a nap, as if I were six.
The worst part is that I have a bio lab final on Tuesday, so I really can't give myself any days off from studying... even if I did just get off of a six-hour shift where I've been sitting at a desk all day.
But, enough of my lamenting. Here's what I really wanted to talk about today:
Self-care is everything, and it's especially crucial around the end of a semester. But, it can be so hard to draw the line sometimes between relaxing and being lazy, or working hard and overexerting yourself. There were times this semester where I have felt a bit guilty for putting stuff off a little longer than I should have, or taking personal days to just be.
But, honestly, those days are so necessary in order to function. You won't be at your best when you are overtired, which means your work won't be as good, anyway. Plus, overworking yourself takes its toll on your body, too.
Thankfully, I'm not sick right now (and I'm extra thankful, because we're approaching finals), but I always know when my body is in desperate need of sleep, because I start to get muscle aches. In fact, my shoulders are aching as I'm typing this.
So, I'm doing what I can. I try to commit to getting at least 8 hours of sleep a night. I give myself brain breaks throughout the day so I can decompress. I meditate (or at least try to, with my overactive mind) for at least 10 minutes each morning before getting out of bed. And, I'm going to ballet class tomorrow at noon.
When it comes down to it, it's all about finding your balance. And, I'm trying to find mine.